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Today’s horoscope:

Are you mulling over an important decision — or are you merely procrastinating? Be careful that you don’t get a reputation for being indecisive. Today, grab life by the hand and take it for a whirl! Do something spontaneous that will surprise the folks around you. Prove to them (and to yourself) that you know that sometimes the value of doing something is much higher than the value of thinking about doing something.

What life?; what spontaneity? when it is paralyzingly cold outside, my thoughts freeze and my mind aborts them as futureless a second after conceiving them. And yet I have to go out ‘cause staying at home suffocates the life out of me.

Whenever I don’t hate my father I pity him. I’m not sure which would terrify him more. I wish I could write “will” instead of “would”. Sometimes I fantasize about smashing him with the truth.