Monday, 27 November 2017

... 592

Yesterday I was playing with Sasha (my cat) and out of the blue I thought "Hey, right now I feel perfectly happy." And I left it at that. It would be a shame to ruin a happy state of mind with thinking.

Friday, 27 October 2017

... 591

Sometimes the only thing I want is to want what other people want. Then other people would make more sense. 

Saturday, 22 July 2017

... 590

It's not that life gets easier with age - you simply learn to handle disappointments better.

The more I live the less I know what life is about. But, curiously, that too matters less. Life is not an assignment. 

Friday, 7 July 2017

... 589

One of the things that make music essential for me is that it mutes people. I don't get to listen about their petty problems and be safe from their pathetic whinings. I can imagine them to be kind and thoughtful, more empathetic than selfish, less self-absorbed than considerate. I just wish people tried harder.

Thursday, 6 July 2017

... 588

Every great concert I go to makes me fall back in love with life. It feels like a miracle each time. I and life...we have a complicated relationship; concerts uncomplicated it at least for a while. 

Saturday, 10 June 2017

... 587

I remember a quote from “The war of the clones”:
“Attachment is forbidden. Possession is forbidden.”


And from “Revenge of the Sith”:
“The fear of loss is a path to the Dark Side.”
“Train yourself to let go of everything you are afraid to lose.”


Nothing is forever. No one is forever. If you care for someone - a human or a pet, that someone will walk out of your life, eventually and inevitably. And you will be hurt - eventually and inevitably. The only way to be safe from harm is to be safe from caring for anyone. And there will be no pain.


Of course there will be no love either.

I didn't say that the plan was flawless.


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I had an overwhelming week. And as if everything else wasn't enough a couple of days ago a friend who's at the seaside posted that her cat somehow has slipped out of the house and was missing. The cat is blind. I check FB every half an hour for updates but no good news so far. And it got me thinking about all the pets I've lost, all the people and their dogs I used to see everytime we were out with Vincent. They're all gone now, some of the people too. Sometimes real life is just too...real. There's too much sadness in it, too much.

Saturday, 27 May 2017

... 586

I can't stand "King Kong". I find the concept unacceptable. All I see is animal abuse and I can't tolerate the idea. I'd love a version in which King Kong smashes the city to pieces and makes it safe home to live happily ever after.