... 568

It's beyond any words and comprehension how irreconcilably different I and my father are - the way a vegan and a hunter, for example, can be. And, yes, it does come as a surprise. If he were a stranger I would've simply ignored him. But he is my father, someone I'm supposed to look up to, someone I'm supposed to trust. Right? I am objective, I keep an open mind but to no avail. He just opens his mouth and blurts out something so absurdly moronic and insensitive that I can't help feeling utterly disgusted.

Thanks, dad.

... 567

I'm currently (and indefinitely) on bad terms with the girl who passes for my best friend. Or passed - I'm not sure which tense is more appropriate.

A few weeks ago we met accidentally and I spent an hour and a half with her (yea) and her 2-year old daughter (nay). I was in a pretty bad shape that day. The mother-cat was ill and I was expecting a call from my mother to tell me the cat has died (the call came in the evening). My mind was deeply troubled and was in a dire need of a sympathetic ear. Instead I had to put up with the tantrums of a spoiled kid and the fact that it was my friend's kid didn't make much difference. As much as I tried I couldn't help expressing my irritation. My friend is not going to forgive that soon, if ever. So be it. I am utterly sick of tiptoeing around people who only care for themselves (which is practically everybody).

Another chapter closed. The older I get the less I will miss real life. Why would I miss something that brings mostly sorrow?

... 566

- Can I return this planet, please? Its performance is not satisfactory.

... 565

The trick is to keep your head above the water of bitterness. It's a trick I still have to master.

... 564

To err is human. To be selfish is human.

I agree. No one is perfect (I should know).

The trouble is that humans have become too human for my taste.

If only there was more common sense and less ego...