Sadly...

...my need for NIN is not as essential as it used to be. As if a part of me is dead. What is so good about maturity anyway? It's like a long general rehersal for death.

... 5

There are advantages to being an atheist. Without the presence of a God to believe in I’m spared the trouble to believe there is a corresponding Devil as well. Cool.

The possibility of a careful God and a tempting Devil puts people concerned in the position of a teenager who still has to count on mum and dad for support but is already smart enough to blame someone else for his own mistakes.

... 4

You know those videos where people turn into monsters-like in Chris Cunningham’s short video nightmares? Lately as I’m stuck in one of those-for better or worse I see beneath the shiny surface right to the true core of people around me and see them as they really are-little selfish monsters. There’s no telling how lonely that makes me feel-like the last one alive.