... 427

roses are red
violets are blue
dreams fade away
when they become true

Can I get any sillier? Sure I can. The only thing scarier than being silly is to forget how to be silly.

... 426

Lately my weekends are solitary-which doesn't come to say they are lonely. For the time being I am apparently better off without people. Maybe I just need an extended rest. Maybe all it takes is for winter to end. Maybe. All I'm certain of is that the only quality time I get is the time spent with the three dogs I take care of. People seem too pretentious and sly for me to bear and only emotion I get from them is the feeling of being used. When I am in such state of mind the meaning of life escapes me and I need to withdraw from the hustle and bustle of human silliness and pettiness so I could fool myself that all this will eventually make sense someday. Somehow I don't think it will.

Wish list

To be able to retire, get a dog and look after him. We'll be very happy together. Happiness is simple.

... 425

There are pro's and con's to independence. Pro's: you're no longer afraid of solitude. Con's: at some point you start to prefer it.

I had a lovely Valentine's day. Probably because it was absolutely romance- and expectations-free.

... 424

I just googled "what do you call someone who is disappointed with humankind" and I got quotes about cynicism. Is that what I am-a cynic? I always thought cynicism was another word for realism. Not that it makes it sound any better.

... 423

I hope winter goes away before I burn any bridges. It is common knowledge that what takes ages to create can be destroyed in the blink of an eye and in the game of blinking I wouldn't bet on myself right now.

All I want is to enter spring with a clean slate. If I want good things to happen to me I need to know that I am worthy of them. It's that simple. 

... 422

Some days the morning “How are you?” sounds like an invitation for a quarrel, when everything people say comes out as rubbish, when someone's mere sight brings out the worst in me. 
Yeah, I know, "it's not you, it's me". It is me who's fed up with history repeating itself over and over. I will do my best to keep my conscience clear but my best might not be good enough.   

... 421

After an overtime working weekend and 12 consecutive working days today my patience is already so stretched that I could strangle someone with it. This isn't a good day to mess with me. Be warned.