Sunday 26 October 2014

Goodwill

Today is a very important day for my best friend-crucial in fact. I hope it all goes well for her-her future depends on it. And the only thing I can do is to send my good thoughts her way. Yes, I know how silly that sounds. And no, I don't believe in such crap. But people do silly things when all other options are explored. So if declaring my wish will help my friend then that's what I'll do. And I do it. I want my friend to get what she wants. I want her to be happy.

Imagine if our thoughts could make a real difference... And maybe they could if we didn't scatter them foolishly in pointless directions.

It once worked, you know? There was something that I wanted to happen. I've been waiting for it for a month and one day I got so desperate that I sat my mind exclusively on it for about 10 minutes. I curled on the sofa, cleared my mind of everything else and repeated my wish insanely. When I stopped my mental energy was completely drained, I felt exhausted as never before. But...somehow it worked and what I wanted did happen within those 10 minutes. Go figure. It sounds crazy and it's probably the weirdest coincidence ever and yet... You never know.

Thursday 16 October 2014

Huh

My yesterday’s horoscope said: Now is the time to give voice to your true desires, because they can be met if you speak up now.
OK, I said. And I blogged about how much I wanted more 30 Seconds to Mars concerts to be announced.
This morning I check their tour page and, oh dear! A massive Russian tour got announced over the night.

Hmm. 
Russia doesn’t work for me but nevertheless I got my wish granted didn’t i? What a delightful coincidence.

Tuesday 14 October 2014

What it comes down to

If I have to sum up what I want out of life it will come down to one thing: to feel special. 
I don't have to. But I did anyway.

Saturday 11 October 2014

If you should put yourself in 5 words

My 5 words would be:

# loyal
# unambitious
# hypersensitive
# responsible
# discreet

Maybe I should play that game again in a few years from now-hopefully my choice will be a different one. Still it's an upgrade comparing to the way I would've described myself a decade ago.

Is there a reasonable correlation between the decay of the body and the perfection of the spirit with age? As compensation-the way after the loss of one of the senses the performance of the others heightens? Life would be much different if it was so-with much less family grudges if not else. It's a pity that something so wonderful as the human spirit should be trapped in such an imperfect perishable shell.

Sunday 5 October 2014

...395

I took a silly online quiz - "How good/bad are you?". I gave an honest answer to each question and the verdict was " You are a perfect angel".
Am I?
And what difference does it make if I am? Virtues seem to be obsolete nowadays. Luckily the stubborn romantic that I still am no longer cares about public opinion. My gravestone will say "She was good although."

Friday 3 October 2014

... 394

Happiness is of a transient nature-and so must be the lack of it, or the feeling of the lack of it. Nothing is solid so it should be possible to rebuild your world anew on demand. Red pill, blue pill - life is too short to give a fuck about that. Safety is an illusion making it easy to recreate it whenever you want for as long as you want.

Wednesday 1 October 2014

... 393

Talking exhausted its charm. Maybe now I'm less the egocentric I was.