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I am, no matter how unpleasant it is for me to face it, focused exclusively on myself. That wouldn’t have been so upsetting if the only things about myself I was focused on were not the negative ones. I only see what is wrong about me, I only notice what others do and I don’t, I always find something exceptional about almost anyone else and nothing about me. I know my sense of self-evaluation is completely derailed and that recently I’m unable to have a clear look at the situation but that’s of little help if any.