“Will I always be here?”

Last night it was just “The downward spiral” and I walking the streets aimlessly and yet determinately as if I was heading to reach the edge of the world. And it brought me back to days and states of mind I wish I could forget for good.

... 48

Still broken. Literally drained to the last drop of any interest in anything/anyone. Feels like being buried alive.

... 47

Life has never been more empty of meaning.