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This kind of says it all:

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I don’t feel like talking but no one seems to miss my words anyway. Both are anything but good. No wonder I’m addicted to my TV-it keeps me oblivious about all things that would make me even sadder. And of it all it’s the failed chances to give love that I regret the most. Nothing compares to doing good for someone else.

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I read this in a blog and it stuck with me:

“-So you bought a lottery ticket. You feel lucky then?” “-No, I feel desperate.”

It is dispiriting that life cares not to make friends with you and there isn't a clean way out of this one-way relationship.