Selfie

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No, it’s that I’m happy-I just have nothing to say. How I feel is beyond words.

I feel selfish today-but not in a good way. It's not that I want something for me-I just don't want to have anything to do with anyone. Today socializing feels like torment and every person I have to deal with is an enemy. 

Gosh, as if I’m 15 years back in time. I hoped never to feel like that again. 

... 353

I don’t like it when I’m overdramatic but that’s exactly how I feel now. And yesterday. And the day before yesterday. And…OK, enough. 

Acting like a drama queen might not be mature but it actually helps me process whatever emotional/fictional problem I need to deal with. By all means being strong is great and admirable. But…sometimes I only want to be cared about. 

... 352

It is always the one who cares more than gets hurt more. I'm sure there's logic to it but that's little comfort... if any.

Don't you wish sometimes you could unplug your feelings?

But then again I wouldn't even if I could. If there's any joy left for me in this world I wouldn't miss it no matter the price I'd have to pay for it.

Sounds inspiring doesn't it? And it could’ve been-if it only didn't feel as if I always pay too much in advance.

... 351

Some days the red pill overcomes the blue pill and that's it.  There's always tomorrow. New day-new delusion.

Uneven distribution

As if youth had all the carrots and now all that is left are the sticks. That's the age capitalism for you-a new ruling class with each next generation.

... 350

People often say that life is unfair. But what if we simply hate to admit we didn't score enough to get to the next level? Is it possible to be unbiased and realistic about your own actions and conduct?

... 349

Wishful thinking is such a bitch.

Edit: I accidentally copy-pasted that in an official document. Luckily saw it on time. 

... 348

It is, by all means, your right to have an opinion.

It is, however, a matter of personal choice and above all ethics to make that opinion known.

People are so irresponsible with words.

... 347

At the end of the day all I need is to know there's someone who cares for me. That quite simplifies life don't you think? And it comes to show how lucky I am to have nothing more serious to trouble me. To some that might be a proof of shallowness; to me it is a matter of priorities. 

#100happydays: What is that? And why?

It seems to have become somewhat of a trend but for the life of me I don't get it. What is that? Some kind of obsessive-compulsive disorder? You can't be happy without counting? Don't all people want to be happy? They do. But I don's see how naming it and turning it into an initiative will make a difference. Well, good luck to everyone who thinks it will but I'all stick to my underground nameless pursue of happiness on day-to-day basis, accept every happy moment as a gift and leave calculations for the others.

Just be happy now. You'll do the math when you grow old.

... 346

"assertive" is a good word. Just be aware not to cross that fine line because "arrogant" follows right behind it. A good name can be only lost once.

... 345

I’m totally disturbed and dismayed when people yell at each other. It’s counterproductive and degrading – in other words it’s useless and ugly. So why do people do it then? What’s the meaning of being mean? Don't tell me it's human nature. Humans should know better by now.

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Sometimes I see children so stunningly pretty that I can’t help thinking: “Young and beautiful. In just a few years from now the world for them will be like an apple fruit hanging off a branch and all they’ll have to do is reach out and pick it. How do you compete with that!?” And all my laboredly build castles of self-control, self-assurance etc self- derivatives that keep my soft inner from scattering collapse in that one accidental glimpse.

Yes, yes, I know-no one said it was going to be easy. It’s just that I don’t see why I should be reminded of it so often. After the first 100 times everyone should get the message.  

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Life's what you make it...or what you make out of it.

In my own show I'm both the puppet and the master. It's up to me to make it, it's up to me to enjoy it.

A scary thought

Sometimes I wonder if I have any friends at all.

Not that I want someone else to solve my problems but a compassionate nod and a comforting smile once in awhile wouldn't hurt you know?
I need cheering up.