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What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, eh? Err, ask me again in 10 years…and I’d probably still tell you that’s bullshit.

Where would I be in 10 years? I don’t even want to know but lately I have a distinct sense of every second and ten years seem a lifetime.  I hope it’s a good one. Not very likely though but the "good" news is that I don't care much. Hmm, on second thought it is a good news indeed.

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Make it stop. Just make it stop.
The nightmare is coming back.

All-surpassing beauty

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Life seems pretty…good lately. Having nothing bad to report is actually something really good to report. It’s the summer, I know. It’s warm and peaceful-what is there more to ask out of life? Sure, I used to dream of many things that are not actually things but I can no longer pretend to believe any of it will be in my reach ever. Nevertheless life’s good. I guess I don’t need much to feel content. And that is either very shallow or deeply profound. I think I prefer to go with the second option. Who’s to tell me otherwise anyway? It is when you don’t think of what you’re missing that you enjoy what you have…I hope. Not that I have many hopes left.

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Today:

- pre-ordered “Maldire”-though the album in due in September the guy needs to know people are interested (and, besides, I’m sure he needs the money now so why wait?);

- made another urgent donation to the Animal Rescue Sofia (another dog in trouble needing a surgery-and I’ll never see the end of it; how can people be so cruel?!);

- put a big plastic can of fresh water outside my building block for the stray gods and cats to drink (the heat is unbearable);

- made a trip to a certain mall to buy something a friend asked me for;

- finally replied a message on FB;

- and I was kind, cheerful and considerate to everyone (not the easiest thing to do when everybody else around growls and shouts).

And now I’m tired.

It isn’t easy to be good…

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You can only hope for your memory to fail you.